changes

i used to just sit back and laugh at my college roommate because she'd always say, "I hate change." maybe i just never experienced so much change at one time so I just didn't get it? well, diana, I GET IT NOW! {and i'm not usually a slow learner!} anyway, i made a tough decision this morning to quit the full time job i just started on Monday. it was just TOO much with 4 small kids still at home, and i'm still not feeling 100%. so, i'm just praying that by paying our tithing, things will work out and the hubby can bring home enough bacon to cover our cost of living. i know things have worked out before when the numbers should not have added up, but i'm not sure that the economy has ever been this bad since we've been married/tried financially. but, i guess i'm learning that that's what faith is . . . believing even when everything might rationally point to the contrary. i know i have a hard time trusting that everything will be ok {hence the tendency towards anxiety!} but life is a journey, and i'm learning that i'm on this journey to pick up things i, personally, need . . . and one of those things is to learn how to "let go & let God." so, as each day passes and each trial mounts {eventhough i already feel like i have all that i can take}, i learn more and more that there is still more room to trust in God, and to have faith that He will take care of everything because He loves us more than we can even imagine. So, friends, keep your chin up too & remember God loves you . . . even when you think everything is going wrong, there IS a blessing right around the corner. Just hold on.